Interesting..

you cut yourself?

I did, yes. Why?

Oh.. -really awakward silence-

I'm sorry. Do you enjoy that? Or is it because of personal problems?

I don't feel alkward. I enjoy it, but it's not something I want to continue. I accept that it is a problem. And yes, I have a plenty. >.>

I never completely understood that, every time a poke myself with a needle it hurts, much less cut with a razor.

Yeah...

It doesn't make sense really. Just another thing people to judge ya for. Whatever I guess. Most people don't know.

I won't judge. I suppose I just feel bad, like I wanna help but at the same time I know people who rather me mind my own bussiness.

Yeah. I know what it's like to be on that end, too. I don't expect people to know what to say, just not to like, hate me for it and say I'm something just because I do it. Right now I just don't see any reason to stop. I don't really have friends that care that much about me. 

And if I do, they don't understand and would judge me. I know because I've heard their opinions on the matter. 

What if you had a friend who cared about you?

 

Then I might stop. But a real friend wants to hang out. You don't have to ask a real friend to call. I don't have any real friends. 

I would be your real friend if I was around

Thanks.

I've thought about it and can't think of a logical reason why cutting makes people feel better - but it does. I think can be mildly addictive...

I don't know either. I think (for some insane reason), it puts attention on physical pain instead of emotional pain and bad feelings. You concentrate more on the wound than what's on your mind. For some it's seeing their own blood that makes them feel alive when otherwise they feel dead and numb. I think there are a number of reasons why it helps, but none of them really make logical sense, it's true.