This isn't right : / (what he's doing, not what you're saying)

I don't know...

There are guys out there who'd almost kill for love and company, he doesn't sound like he realises what he's got, you shouldn't be number 2 to an xbox or have to (possibly) be distressed because of his needs to figure things out, he shouldn't be letting it affect how he is to you, he should talk about it, but treat you good.
I'm not suggesting to lose patience with him, I just mean he needs a kick up the ass into realising what he has

Yea...

I'm worried maybe he doesn't really value what he has. Maybe he doesn't love me.

He might love you but not realise it till he's threatened, i was like that once

We had a talk, and I'm going to post about it in a minute here. If you want to read it.

maybe he has a  lot on his mind..
I know sometimes I just need to be away from everyone
Just be sweet and make him something special. maybe cupcake to say hi this is for you
after all small gestures mean a lot
hugs!

But what? I asked him if anything happened, or anything was bothering him, and besides what I mentioned, he said no. He said he didn't know why.

Well, our living situation's a little more complicated than that... but thanks. I've been trying to think of something nice to do, but I'm really starting to feel rejected...

He said he felt sick last night but he said he felt like talking again. Today he had a friend over and was again, on xbox all day and hasn't bothered to answer any of my messages except the last one, to tell me that.

i'll take from more recent blog entries that he's now over that phase?
do you think everyone goes through that sometime in their life? i might have, but i'm not sure. i tend to not want to see even my best friend on some days, because i hate her then, without reason to. she's fantastic and everything...

He's "over" that phase, and yea, we started talking more and stuff. But he said that happens every now and then. Who knows when it will again. He doesn't even know what caused it. He says he was sad when he was younger but doesn't know why and doesn't want to think about it. He got angry when I suggested that it might be important.

I don't know if everyone does. I suppose it might be a mood. But I don't think I've ever experienced it to that extent. It's hard to understand. Especially when he doesn't know why he felt that way.

Yeah, it made me think it was something to do with me, but he said it wasn't. He said he just found everything revolting and that included me.

We're better I guess, but it's never going to be easy I think, as long as we're so far away. I'm trying to believe that he wants me like I want him, but it can be hard and make me insecure.

hmm.. you might be right about that.

aah. well, hopefully he finds a way to overcome it whenever it comes round.

there would be no point in him lying to you, so i spose you can trust him to tell you the truth.

Yeah.. I'm trying.

I think if he wasnt happy, he wouldn't be with me. He seems to be that kind of person.

lucky that you found him

Guess I was wrong.

I almost wish this never happened.

Fuck.

what's up?
i'm just on really quickly, so i'm afraid i don't have time to check your blog for any hints

too bad