I don't care anymore

I just don't care anymore.

No one else does. People don't get it, I don't even get it I suppose. I have three people you could call friends, and I tried talking to all of them( I have to call them because they wouldn't be caught dead calling me), they just blame me or change the subject.

I tried reaching out and I was turned down. Can't say I didn't try.

One of them says I'm just not trying hard enough. How can he say that? I have been trying my ass off. So he says maybe I've been trying the same thing over. Well I have been trying a list of different things. I just don't have social skills, I was made fun of all my life, I was and am the loner. He just says to try harder and I say I've given up. He said that's the problem, you just give up. It goes on like that until he says he doesn't know what to do, that I just shoot down everything he says. I say, now you get it. When you try so hard and so much and get shot down every time, you get worn out and you feel like quitting. Eventually after so much failure you begin to not care anymore.