He bumped into me today... in that playful way he used to. First time I smiled at him in months. I smile and it does feel good to see him playful towards me and to make contact with me... but it just stings and makes me warm and numb at the same time. It's like...it makes me so happy, but it reminds me of when that would happen normally and it just kinda hurts... I want to wrap my arms around him and cuddle up against him, but that just won't ever happen. I feel so lame. I want him so badly. He's back with a girlfriend again, but all along he seems to have some attatchement to me. I need to forget it. I need to let go. I've written too many poems and too many blogs and thought about him way too much. He's added to my list of people who've made me cut. It's sad, it really is. It's more dumb than sad, though. Argh. All happiness is numbed by him and I'm afraid it's going to ruin me. </3
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