First Time Beautiful

You glide

and I stop.

let’s try this

you glide

and I stop.

you smile patiently

I push

and in.

tiles and a towel

warm hair

hot skin

comfortable

inside me.

a wet kiss

no thought for the weary

no worry, no thought

belts off and ready

this is right

so right.

no hesitation,

and a hug.

and we lay,

in and out

breathe

in and out

breathe deep

Of wonder…

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like wow I haven't written a poem for a very long time!

I think, I haven't wanted to capture my life anymore... so sick of it. so sick ofmy feelings, of myself. I didn't write much in my journal either. I'm trying to. I look at my old stuff, and some of it I just hate. I sometimes feel that there is nothing new to be written. That it's all just cliche, why bother...And my boyfriend is encouraging me, to try to forget that voice, and just write, like I used to... <3

And this poem is the same title as a previous blog entry, which I had an idea that I might write a poem, but it didn't fully form at the time. I was reading a poem online, and it gave me the idea, that I had been thinking all along, how I really want to capture this amazing moment...