I leave on Tuesday for Europe!

The plan is: Fly to brussels on tuesday, stay in brussels
until saturday (meeting up with Klaire on thursday),
take the train to PARIS, where we will stay until the
25th, and then we'll be coming home from Paris.

That's basically it.
We are staying in a very nice hotel, I would
tell you what it's called... but then I'd have to 
kill you. It has a view  of the Eifel tower,

 and it's on the champs elysee!
Amazing, huh?

I'm going to take tons of pictures, Trust me.

This is going to sound weird to some of you,
but my Sister that I am meeting there is battling
some sort of Evil Spirits. It's quite odd, but she
keeps waking up (in Africa) and she can feel
people, or spirits there, and she hears them
talking. So please pray for her as she fights this,
whatever it is. Obviously the Devil is trying to
do something.

The doctors still haven't given Natalie a real

estimate of how long she has, but things still
are not looking so good for her. She had

an operation (I haven't found out exactly what
it was yet), and she can sit up now, which is
good. I still haven't seen her, I really wish I

could ... but I can't. I've tried to get rides, but

no one is available to drive me - including my

mom.

My dad might need surgery. He is having
neck problems and he hasn't been himself
lately. So if you feel like it sometime,
you might just give him a quick prayer.

He tried to call my Dad to apologize and

ask him if he could still be my friend, but my

dad was on medicaton from his MRI, so he
couldn't talk. I really do miss his friendship.

My dad asked me if I missed him, and I said
"Yes, I really miss his friendship, but I've come

to terms with the fact that we can only be friends."
I just wish that I could go back to when we were

best friends, before he told me that he liked me ..
and before I told him the same thing.

However, I took the risk knowing that
something like this could happen ... and it did.
I haven't decided if I would risk something like

that ever again in my life. I don't know.

I guess I'm kind of ranting right now -- Sorry.

I'm ready for Europe.
I need to get away from this place.

Right now there are just too many memories that

are still so fresh in my mind. I need to take a break.

Everywhere I go, everything reminds me of something

or somebody that I'm losing/lost. I can't handle this for
too much longer.

I have found that through everything, God holds my hand.
He is really my best friend, and I love him so much.

I'm not just saying that. I feel him. I see him in everything
I do, everything that happens - even though

right now everything is kind of rotten, I can see his

plan unfolding. Maybe I won't see the whole picture
for awhile ... maybe I'll never really see it or
understand it, but I know that it's there - and I know

that God has a hold on my life, and that's so much more

than I could ever ask for.

My faith has never been stronger.

-Karolyn-