Why dont they get it?

Why cant my NCOs get that I DONT WANT TO BE ONE!!! I am ok with being just an E-4 right now. I have no want or need to be an NCO at all. I am not ready for more pressure then I already have on me. Hell I already cant handle the little bit that is put on me. Why not let other guys who WANT that go to the WLC school.. why is it when I say NO I dont want to do that and NO I dont want a packet put in for a promotion they say o well you are doing it anyways... I dont think I am going to sign the packet though when it is done.. I mean yes they will be mad but they cant force me to fucking write my name on it.. I DONT want to be an NCO right now. I will get there. I WILL be one and when I am one I will do a great job at it and I will have my shit down tight like it should be.. not like it is right now. Right now I dont know my own job, I dont know the facts that EVERY member of the Army should know.. simple stuff on your weapon and fuck I will admit at time I am even weak on my rank structure. Which is very sad.. Why cant they just leave me alone to do the job they gave me at the mometn and let me be. I HATE being forced to do things. I hate being told to be motivated because it just makes me not want to do shit..  yes that is the little rebel in me that is still not done fighting and I hope he never does.. but god damn it.. I DONT want it...

 

That is it.. LAter

~Bob