"We Change thats all. You see the Guy I am now is not the guy I was then. If the guy I was then met the guy I was now, he would beat the shit out of me. Those are the fact." Steve-O SLC Punk!
At this moment in the movie I went into my own deep thoughts about myself and my past self. Though for me it for me it goes more like this..
If the guy I am now met the guy I was then I would feel pity on that guy, but that guy would feel disgust on the guy I am now as well.
I mean I would see that there i good in me but I would look at my slutty life I lived over the last couple of years and put myself right into the he is an asshole players club. I would look on him and think what a blind fool this kid is to this world. He is going to get ate up and spit out unless he changes....
Funny part is he did.. but he turned into something else that he also did not want to be.. JUST to get away from the pathetic fool that he was...
I hope that I am now in the median between the two roads that I so far have traveled on... but who knows how I will change in the future. I know much will change in the next couple of years in my life. I know that in 2010 I will again already be able to look back and think Wow that truly was many steps ago and much has changed since then. Though who knows what though steps will truly be.. who knows what the future holds. That is why I try to keep my open mind and just live life as it comes at me. Why start to safe up for a future life when I am old when for all I know I could be dead 20 minutes from writing this post. Yes we need a plan for the what if be that a short term or a long life.. but still I try to just charge into my life with open arms.... \
Well that is what is on my mind at the moment.. I think it is time for Trainspotting for the next movie of the night.
Later
~Bob
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