I am alone. No matter how good i feel one day, the next I always feel like crap. I feel alone even if I am surrounded by friends. I feel as if I have neglected some of my closest friends because of my own stupidity. I don't want to feel this way. I figure the reason that I feel this way is that all of my closest friends leave and go somewhere else. They come back for a week or so and then they leave to either college or on some venture. I think that it's weird that for someone who doesn't really enjoy human contact that I get attached so easily. Why can't I just erase emotions away and plant new ones in their stead. If I could I would just become some happy-go-lucky zombie living day by day with a sunny disposition. I don't know what is wrong with me. I do love all of my friends, but sometimes I don't think that they know that. I fell bad for blowing them off sometimes. I pretty sure that Phyll doesn't believe me sometimes when I say that I don't have a vehicle. I hate the fact that I don't have a vehicle during the day to go out with friends for lunch. I guess I just hate it all.

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