Taking Ginger to get all her shots and a microchip tomorrow. Ordered 3 more months of her chewable flea & tick stuff so that’s a lot less for me to worry about.
May or may not get a new piercing this weekend. If you’re in the Portland area you’ve probably heard of or been to Black Hole Body Piercing. I frequent the West location over in Beaverton. I’ve never had a bad experience there They’ve got a new apprentice piercing there on Saturdays so whatever you want done is free, aside from the price of the jewelry. I want to get a new septum ring too that’s snug and seamless so I can get rid of this circular barbell. My nose studs are also a bit long because I never downsized them, so sometimes they stick up out of my nose like antennae lol.
Haven’t decided what I’ll get if I do get stuck tomorrow. I know I want a vertical labret and a philtrum, small studs in each tragus, as well as an industrial. Need to talk to them about stretching my lobes a little (not very big, just a couple sizes) but my original ear piercings are wonky as fuck, so I dunno if I need to get fresh piercings and wait for them to heal before I begin stretching them. Saving the bellybutton for later down the road for when I can give it a good environment to heal in. And I want a tongue piercing again, but I had such bad pain from the placement of the last one that I had to take it out while I was in Wales.
I’ve thought about it for a lil bit and I’m gonna wait another 2 weeks. Too much stuff to spend money on that’s more important so I need to put those first over body mods lol.
Left this here for a few days. Have had something in my thoughts but haven’t quite felt like I was in the right mind to write about it. I still don’t feel like I’m going to fully grasp my feelings on it but yeah. I’m afraid I’m infertile. I’ve always had troubles with my downstairs business. Yep, I’m gonna talk about my period.
My period has never been regular, not in my whole life. I’m 27 now, so I’ve had over 15 years of unpredictable, bloody problems. It had also always been on the heavy side, so imagine not knowing when that’s going to start. Sometimes it’ll last a few days, sometimes it’ll last 3-4 weeks. Sometimes I’ll have two a month, sometimes I’ll go 3-5 months without having one.
All of my doctors have said IT’S JUST STRESS. You know, probably. But now that I’ve been made aware of my bipolar diagnosis, it makes more sense. I used to fight them and say how? How can I be that stressed ALL the time, what is causing me to be soooo stressed my entire adult life?
I’ve been on and off the pill a couple times. Off because I stopped being with a long-term partner and didn’t see the point, or moved across the country so I didn’t have health insurance. It did sort of help my period become a little more predictable. Always seemed to start 2-3 days before my placebos, but at least I had a general idea.
I had a few slip ups with 2 of my exes (didn’t pull out in time, broken condom etc) and was surprised I never got knocked up.
Before I went to Wales I went in to try to get a refill of my pills because hey I’m getting laid right gonna need it. Had skipped about 2 months because I couldn’t afford an extra 15 bucks a month when I didn’t need it. Apparently my prescription expired, so I had to run around to different pharmacies that can prescribe BC (thank god for that Oregon law). Most of them didn’t have that pharmacist working at the time, and the last one wouldn’t give it to me because you had to test under a certain blood pressure, and I was stressed the fuck out because I needed these pills and it was the last day I could drive around searching for a pharmacy that could give them to me.
So, off I flew to Wales, no birth control. I know it wasn’t my best decision, but I figured fuck it, I can come back home and take the abortion pill if things go tits up. We planned on pulling out, but it happened twice on accident and you know what, I just really like the way it feels so we said fuck it and kept on doing it. I told him I’d be looking into the abortion pill when I got home. I’m not about to be having any kids yet.
We had a LOT of sex over those 3 months and I had a period in the first month, and a shorter one in the second so I thought I was fine. Then I didn’t get one the third month and was freaking out. I felt like I was MASSIVE. I felt bloated, I felt nauseous, and when I looked up symptoms of how many weeks I thought I was pregnant, I was BANG ON. I was only scared of the pain that an abortion would cause, but I didn’t have any second thoughts about doing it.
When I came home I was freaked out for a while and I had a hard time getting an appointment to look into the abortion pill. A few weeks down the road I came across the threshold of being able to use the pill and having to have the “surgical abortion” and that freaked me out even more. I took about 10 pregnancy tests that all came out negative, but I kept feeling all of these horrible things going on with my body and thought maybe my tests are wrong. A couple days before my screening appointment I had the heaviest, most painful period in my life.
I’m pretty sure it was a miscarriage.